I dont even remember the last time I wrote in here. I think that everyone kind of migrated over to myspace. But I dont like writing blogs on there. For some reason I dont like the fact that my friends can see it. I don't want all of them to see it, but I dont want to make each one specific to a certain group of  people. Lame. So, I will write in here.

I will be a senior this year, school has really gone by, I can read blog entries that I wrote when I was a freshman being a rebel in Computer class and writing blogs. I am teaching dance now, I really like the kids. I love it a lot. I still am going to persue dancing as a profession I am gettong together a tape to send in to Cruise Lines, specifically Royal Carribian to be a dancer on a cruise ship. I will leave right out of highschool Well, hopefully if all goes as planned. Things change though.

I feel as though I am writting to myself. Or making like a note or reminder about my life. I doubt anyone will read this, I thinkt he only person who updates on a semi regular basis is Mike. Well, who is on my friends, and Josh sometimes. Thats okay. They are cool people none the less.

More later?

I hope so

For the people who actaully know me...they know my lazyness, but just maybe I will change and update. We'll see.

-Becca

I like to read a lot of strangers blogs to read about their own oppions on important matters. I do it becuase I learn a lot when I read, a lot of things that I did not know before. One of the reasons I love reading these things is becuase I am not educated as well as most in the Christain faith, meaning that when you all are quoting things, I read them and try to figure them out, and I have no idea who wrote them. A question I have is can you still be a christain and belive in God and be loved by him and not be judged becuase you do not know as much about the history of it all...But you do know that God still loves you?

I grew up Christian. I still am a Christian. However when I read this I realized that I don't think I am as hard core into it as some people. I belive in God, and Jesus. I pray everyday and give God everything I can. But I can tell you right now that I have sinned before. And I have asked for Gods forgivness. I agree that I think that everyone has sinned and hopefully  they have asked for forgivness, but I too have a lot of oppinions on matters like this. I have a VERY open mind on these kind of matter becuase as soon as I think of an oppinion, I am contridicting myself and questioning myself...so bare with me.

I have a lot of gay friends, becuase I am a dancer and you well...dance with them a lot. All of them are great people, so I would hope that nobody would judge them becuase they were homosexuals. Now I think that judging is a very hard thing to deal with. I beilive that everyone judges. And its a bad habbit to be sure. But I do not think that anyone has the right to tell some one that they can or can not be or do something. It is like me telling you that what your faith is, is wrong. What you beilive in is wrong. and then perceeding to tell you what is "right". Becuase what is right for me, may not be right for you. You have to keep in mind that not everyone will always agree with you and you have to aceept it. But when all of these problems arise becuase of homosexuals I get really confused. In my own oppinion, it is just how people treated blacks back in the day. They wouldnt let blacks go to their church becuase they were different. And what I got out of this  post(And this is coming from a 16 who Does NOT know a lot about the christain faith, even though I am one.) That you treating them differently becuase they are in fact different.  I dont know what the Bible says on this matter...But Ill take your guys' word for it becuase you all seem very educated in it. My only thing is, how do you know what it feels like to be gay. You cant start accusations on them and trating them differently when you have NO idea what it feels like. Maybe they can love, maybe they do belive in Christ, and maybe they like heterosexuals want human contact. I mean, I try not to judge some one that I dont know what it is like to be like.Wow, I think I am just rambling...I think what I am trying to say. with me personally and with the people in my church we just dont care what you are...is that bad?

What I would like to know is it just the Bible that says it isnt allowed? I mean you talk about the Chruch saying it isnt ok? and that they have to change? is that it? But how do you change something like being gay? What I am afraid of, is that if they are kicked out... they will start their own like gay chruch and then you have segragation all over again. and all the problems that they dealed with in the past will spring back up again. So its either, they change themselves or find a different church?

I am just trying to understand things. I am definently not mad. Not at all, I am glad that these types of things get posted...becuase the chruch I go to is a lot different then what your church sounds like. We learn about other religions, like budism and judism. Just everything and to acept and love everyone no matter what. no questions asked... My church is very open minded and everyone is allowed to worship no matter what their circomstances are... Am I a true Christian? that qeustion isnt intended to be rude, I am asking it whole heartly, like seriously I dont know becuase what I have grown up with...doesnt sound the same as yours.

Its a very good post, becuase again with my open mind everything I am wondering what religion I really am. But then I get to thinking what about the Mormans and other rligions views on this, is it same for everyone? Or is it each persons oppinion.

James is probably the only one who will really understand this blog... all the rest of you will probably get confused. lol.

truly confused,

Becca

1.When you look at yourself in the mirror in the morning, what's the first thing you look at? my face

2.How much cash do you have on you? like 20...I am poor.

3.What's a word that rhymes with test? Chest?

4.Favorite plant? daisy

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone? Christopher

6.What is your main ring tone on your phone? Mr. Brightside

7.What shirt are you wearing? A pink silky, lacey on...lol

8.Do you "label" yourself? Haha yeah...I am a dancer, you take it from there.

9.Name brand of your shoes currently wearing? Bare feet.

10.Bright or Dark Room? Bright

11.What do you think about the person who took this survey before you? Steph, very cool girl! My phantom buddy!! lol

12.Ever "spilled the beans"? Nope

13.What were you doing at midnight last night? Talking to people online.

14.What did your last text message you recieved on your cell phone say? "My dad, I'm paying for both of us to go" from Linsery.

15.Do you ever click on "Pop Ups" or Banners? Nope

16.What's a saying that you say a lot? Babe

17.Who told you they loved you last?Nenza

18.Last furry thing you touched?Pillow at Walmart with Chris and Cb

19.How many hours a week do you work? F that, I teach 2 hours. I dance 15 hours. I do rehersals for about 3 for Phantom, 1 for our hip hop performance, and how many other when  Nutcracker comes...lol.

20.How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?Lol...like 4 all from RALLY!!!

21.Favorite age you have been so far? 16 baby!!

22.Your worst enemy? myself.

23.what is your current desk top picture? "Just thinking of yuo makes me smile"Uhh... I forgot the site...the stick figure guys! lol

24.what was the last thing you said to someone? How are you?

25.If you had to choose between a milion bucks or to be able to go back in time to fix all of your mistakes, which would you pick?Million Bucks, becuase I have made mistakes in the past, but I do not regret anything, and I have learned from them. If I hadnt made them, then I wouldnt be the person I am today!

GIRLFRIEND/BOYFRIEND APPLICATION!

BASIC INFO
name:
age:
location:
status:
height:
color of hair:
eyes:
body type:

Basic Questions

What are the 3 most important things in a relationship to you?

What do you think about the most when your in a realationship?

Are you shallow?

Do you consider yourself having high standards?

Are you in schoool?

Are you close enough to me to date?

Do you drive?

What's your favorite season?

Do you like rain?

Personal Questions

Girl: what's your bra size?

BOY: are you hung?

Girl/Boy: How many times a day do you masturbate?

Girl: do you play with your boobs?

Girl/boy: Are you proud of your body?

Boy: Do you scratch yourself in front of girls?


Me Questions

What do you like about me?
would you kiss me?
touch me?
lick me?
fuck me?

what would you do if i was feeling down?

what would you do if we were both bored on a friday night?

How would you make me smile when i feel shitty?

Would you ever bring me flowers at work?

what's the sweetest most perfect date?

What's the most attractive part of me?

Would you cuddle with me during thunderstorms?


Final QUestions

Why would you be a good girl/boyfriend?

What do you really offer me?

Would you break my heart if I fell for you?

Wow..sometimes I wonder if people even care. I really doubt it now. But Oh well... Ill get by... it just pisses me off being used and walked all over by people. ::shrug::